Midnight blues

It´s weird that it´s posible to feel sad but at the same time safe and in some weird way happy. Spring is on it´s way and it should be laughs all over the place but instead I got crap coming at me from every angle. Friends that want to be friends but really not. I dont know what to do anymore seems that whatever I do it´s wrong. Maybe I´m wrong. Could it be that simple? That it´s me, I´m plain simply wrong in my and my friends life. Guess I got to decide what to do next, but that´s hard 'cause I dont know what to do. It´s driving me nuts and sad I guess. I just want that feeling to go away.